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About Yue Li

Yue Li: Unlike the average Baruch Student, I actually grew up on a farm in Beijing chasing pigs and chopping chickens. My mother was a refugee because she took part in the 1989 Tian An Men Square Massacre. My father helped her escape out of China so he was put in jail for about a year. When he did finally come out, his mother passed away so he went back to his hometown, Guang Zhou. I was predominantly raised by maternal grandmother. I reunited with my mother at the age of seven in the United States. In 1998 when my grandmother passed away, I never really knew what death was until a part of me was taken away. The date I wrote the poem was ironically the exact date of the ten-year anniversary of my grandmother’s death.

Shi Nian de Si Nian
(Ten Years of Regret/Remembrance)
By Yue Li

Ten thousand miles away from home
Too far away from a place I call my own
Ten years now that my grandma’s passed away
Five years now since I’ve visited her grave
I was ten years old when she first left
It’s been ten years now I been a mess
She was there when my mom was a refugee
She was there when my dad abandoned me
When she left, I knew it wouldn’t ever be the same
I disappointed her with nothing but shame
I would do anything to go back to Beijing
Give anything to see the stone of Wang Xiu Ying
“Huo zhe na men lei, wei wo na ma ku”
I hated myself for not saying “I love you”

“Huo zhe na men lei, wei wo na ma ku”
(You lived a hard life, yet you still sacrificed so much for me)

 

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